no different but special

you shouted "why you shout at me!"

because you weren't listening...

why don't you listen to me

because you don't understand me...

or more ironically, i can't get myself understood...

To Michael: I am so sorry that I've just felt the pain which I should have been felt 6 years ago, though it is really painful to me, compared with what you had gone through, it can't be called pain at all...I miss you

everyone's life is a role play game. I am not talking about some poker face or fake person, they are  shallow things.

being important to someone or not? in your life, also in other's life, and in both of your lives at the same time. 

it is hard to say you are important from any single point of view.

someone's life is just about himself, someone's about other, someone's about both....

that life just about oneself has nothing to do with value

life about other is focused on being helpful or not

life about both of them is rather complex, so as the feeling of the one's owner is complex too! especially when the owner is considering two lives at the same time.

the feeling, that has been revealed, is a result of balancing. 

pathetically, the harder you tried on balancing, the more stressed feeling you would get.

so many shits you can't deal with, not in your peanut little brain!huh!

that's the thing! keep on balancing!

my best friend, she is going to marry her life to a great man.

we have been friends since there wasn't any ugly girl thing

as pure as pure~

love her deeply in my heart, so I feel so happy and so honor that she found herself a wonderful life. Though there were unlucky things, tears and depression, there was never any desperation. This wonderful life now is a reward to her as a prize for her patience, for her hard trying, and for her faith of never giving up!

love her so much that happy tears running down on my face.

I am dying to hug her for now~ please let me go home!!

最上一次见面是你刚去深圳，我们同去参加Double婚礼了。我没有计算过这个时间是多长，只觉得有点久了。回头看看，原来Double和凌先生都婚一年了，就是说我们也有一年多没见了。

上次在深圳。那时候你身上是有多少的变故，你忐忑但是依旧表现的很淡。我触不到你的忧伤，但是我们依然互相关心。在这一年里，我会去逛逛你的blog。我看到你的寂寞和挣扎，看到你一点点好起来。还没痊愈，也不会痊愈的那些，可是你财富。

这次，我知道你要来，我猜测你变成什么样子。除了“长好了”，你的心变大了。你告诉我你领悟到得事情和你已经学会对付的生活。没有关上你的门，没有因为那些个变故而忘记自己的梦想。最终，还是美好的事情更有力量。

轻松，即使外滩让你失望了。哈~今天还有好吃的等着你