no different but special

今天，自己的，别人的，真实的，虚构的，只要是悲伤有关，统统缠上身

新一波的内分泌失调，让我再悲伤一把吧

what about me
i do this just for fun? actually not
but why i feel this way?
i know it is to me a wasting of time or to him the same sort of thing,but i can't help myself doing this.
stupid embarrising ...low day

finally, finished watching Gossip Girl.the happiest moment should be C&B getting together.the tension releases,dreaming of  a story could never happen....low again

i need someone,someone in and out there.but after all,how dare i even hope there is one.till the day i can face myself or it would never happen.